Colby is a shy and very overweight. Her mother and sisters are blond and petite and in contrast Colby is dark and overweight like her father, who is running for congress. Colby finds a picture of her father with another woman and this single event brings everything crashing down around her. Her mother, lets just say, is self centered and is extremely cruel to her on a continual basis about her weight and how, seemingly, everything that has gone wrong is Colby’s fault.
Leah, Colby’s aunt, takes her family in when they are kicked out of their house. Which is an extreme kindness in the face of how the family has treated Leah and her son Ryan when she left her physically abusive husband, only to be told by her family that he husband would never do that and she, in some way, deserved it. Colby is more like her aunt in appearance than the rest of her own family and finds some comfort with her but at times not enough. Colby finds solace in food and as her weight gets out of control so do her emotions. A family tragedy happens in which the truth gets turned around and Colby finds herself mentally abused by those she thought she could trust.
This book deals with rape, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts and actions, intolerable cruelty, mental abuse beyond words but also hope and salvation. There is a darkness to this book, how things are handled and how badly Colby is treated by her mother and older sister. I felt rage and anger reading this book, something I haven’t felt in a long time when reading. This book brought out so many emotions in me that I felt drained by the end of it and I was actually crying. This book to me is not only about eating disorders but about bullying as well, but bullying by family members. It’s hard enough thing in itself to deal with but when it’s your own self centered and selfish mother doing it it’s hard to see a light at the end of the tunnel.
This book is hard to read. It deals with many difficult topics but does it quite well and realistically. This is a book that stays with you. This is an excellent book while very difficult to read, it is worth the ride.
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